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I will try and not get too crazy today, but no promises on that ha.  Well you know your life has not turned out well when one of your greatest days was Tommie Frazier committing to your football team the Huskers ha.  Yeah I remember that whole day I was freaking the fuckk out about it like oh man man I hope Tommie is coming I hope he doesn't choose Notre Dame those azz hats fuckk.  Yeah that was the greatest Husker recruiting class ever there in the early 90's that paved the way to dominance over the next few years.  I don't understand why nobody wants to come here anymore I mean there are great facilities oh yeah I know the facilities are top notch, a great storied tradition and all the hot white chicks you want, oh they throw themselves at you basically if you play for the team here ha, yeah they all get some great piece of azz fo sho I see em there with the jerseys on at the games oh yeah they all sit in the same section pretty much.  Maybe they don't like white chicks that is what is holding us back here ha, yeah there aren't many black chicks except ones that are on the sports teams I guess.  Yeah they have the jerseys on at the games the chicks I am like oh damn whoa what a lineup ha our guys are getting taken care of well I see, well oh yeah I would be fine with that in my view yeah I see a  lot of hot pusssy sitting there with the jerseys on at the games, oh plenty of hot white chicks yeah that are bangin the players.  Yeah that I'm sure happens everywhere though so we don't have hand there, although like here it is the only game in town there are no pro teams or anything so you are the man here yeah yeah everybody does this

Yeah I used to be one of those huge recruiting geeks ha, I would sit there and worry about where some stupid kids were going, I don't really follow it anymore I mean I like to see who we got when guys commit to the Huskers yeah, but I don't have a subscription to rivals or anything, I used to though ha, and I would follow it like all the time like oh we need to get this guy man he needs to come here ha.  Yeah following Husker recruiting was kind of a thing I did all the time I would be on rivals oh I hope this kid will come here, that is kind of pathetic really ha, but I did it.

Oh I hope this guy will commit to the Huskers come on come on ha, that was funny now that I think about it how I would spend just hours on rivals thinking about who the Huskers will get.  It never usually worked out no, yeah the Huskers would usually lose out to somebody and I would be pissed all day ha.  Well really Nebraska hasn't ever recruited like top 10 level classes no for the most part no on that.

Callahan actually did recruit well but he couldn't coach so it sucked ha, we would win on signing day and then him and stupid Cosgrove couldn't coach so we were terrible ha, oh Cosgrove he had to be the worst defensive coordinator in the fuckking county that guy was awful.  I liked how it was ya know spiraling out of control then we went to Kansas and gave up 70+ points, and Cosgrove they showed him on the camera on TV crying after the game ha, yeah I was like oh oh oh this is it these guys need to go, we are fuckking crying on the field and shitt what the hell?

Yeah there is no crying in Nebraska football bitchh you know, like I remember watching that like oh my my what has it come to how are we crying on the field fuckk this is Nebraska mothefuckker we don't cry on the field ha Cosgrove walking off the field crying, I don't even remember what year that was now.  Yep a proud tradition ruined, I kinda think Callahan just wrecked the program so bad him and Cos that it has never fully recovered no.  Yeah Callahan would call him Cos always like Cos had a great game plan today the fuckking Cos, oh I hate both of them yeah ha.

I really hope Riley can restore the program to its standing of kicking azz and being in the top 10 where it belongs, maybe he can do it I am not sure, I mean I never thought one day 70+ points to Kansas would happen, and then some dude on Wisconsin Gordon would set a fuckkking record on my team ha, like what happened?  How did the Huskers become a joke?  I mean I have no idea how that could happen to a storied program like the Huskers this is the Big Red bitchh like nobody runs over us. 

Yeah I go to the games now and get so pissed I wanna kill myself ha, well Michigan St I mean they come in here and beat us that bumfuckk outfit, yeah the Husker should never lose a home game to those fuckking guys no.

Oh and Minnesota or Northwestern they come in here and win which if you told me that like 20 years ago that the Huskers would lose at home to fuckking Minnesota I would have been just laughing my azz off like are you serious dude get the fuckk outta here, but no it is happening, Minnesota ha well we used to play them all the time in non conference play and just kick their azzes all over the place, yeah we better schedule a cupcake what is Minnesota doing?  

Yeah when my Huskers play Minnesota I expect an 84-13 win ha, that was what it was back in 1983 yeah at Minnesota in that crappy dome 84-13 but now they beat us ha.

Why can't anything be normal again in my life ha.  No nothing is my team is in disarray, I don't have a job no, my pets heads are falling off ha.

I think me and the Huskers both followed a similar downward spiral ha, yeah it coincided yes, my life went in the toilet and so did they ha.

That is what I need the Huskers to return to dominance then maybe my life can return to prominence I don't know, but maybe on that yeah, well I am out of ideas on what would turn my life around, that may though just you know watching my Huskers kick azz like they used to yeah that may jump start things.

Man I am nuttier than Chinese chicken salad right now nothing will save me ha.

Back to the games now.  I don't even have a normal schedule now I just get drunk and let the chips fall where they may ha, yeah whenever I pass out I don't care, then I wake up at whatever the fuckk time like oh it is 6 now, I have been awake for a few hours.  Nobody normal is talking to themselves on the internet drinking at 4 am on a Wednesday morning no ha, but I do yeah.

Just getting drunk here in my parents basement ha wooooooooooooooo, you can't fuckk with that shitt bitchh, well I kinda am to the point now where I can't have any responsibilities no ha, yeah I can't do anything I am just dying here ha.

I wonder how I am alive, like the voices in my head they say they are performing medical procedures like keeping me alive, they say oh we repaired your liver, which fuckk maybe I don't know there.  Yeah don't bite the hand that feeds you that is what they say to about my postings, yeah when I talk about em.  

Yeah there must be something going on with me like with the voices cuz I was just in all kinds of pain yeah liver pains and then all of a sudden I'm okay ha, oh I had huge pains now they are gone, and I was in the hospital just a little while ago oh clean bill of health Tuck yeah you are fine no liver problems the blood test came up great ha.  When I was in there though I kept thinking oh everybody here is in on it they are all out to get me ha they are in cahoots with the voices yeah, and hell maybe they were I don't know.  Really right now I don't know much about anything.

Yeah I probably need to go back to the mental hospital ha, they have my bed and room reserved at this point, oh Tuck your back, we kept your room here for you, I am not as retarded or crazy as most people in there though no, I am the most normal guy in there ha.

Yeah the last time though they wouldn't let me leave without signing a 48 hour release form ha, they were like ummmmm you are far from stable Tuck and we don't want you to leave you need more time here and help, I go well what do I have to do to leave I wanna go, then they said you can sign this paper here and we will release you in 48 hours.  

Yeah Tuck and metally stable are not in the same sentence ha no, I have never heard that comment uttered Tuck and mentally stable ha.

Yeah the mental hospital I may need to go back there ha, most everybody though was way more gone in the head than me, I mean I felt normal in there yeah.  I mean there were a few people that were just crazy and not retards or brain dead in the hospital, yeah some people like me but not many, yeah I made friends with one dude in there that was cool we watched the hockey game the Cup, yeah I should call that motherfuckker we should hang out and get crazy yeah he was on my level voices in the head, which I don't know how many people have this condition but oh my my it will make you crazy as all hell, yeah try hearing people talking to you all fuckking day in your head oh give it a shot there.  Yeah you can't like do anything with that going on no, well you can it just won't work out no.  Like a job hell no with voices jabbering at you all day, yeah good luck on that.

Yeah they feed me risperdal, zyprexa, halidol oh they all do nothing no no.  I mean I wish something would work and I could be normal and have a job yeah it would be nice, but no nothing helps the madness.  

Yeah I am drunk now so no voices in the head bang bang bitchh, yeah that is all that gets rid of em.

Yeah people hear about my story and are like oh my I feel so bad for you.  Yeah I tell em well you know I hear voices in my head all day it is fuckking terrible.    

I will maybe pass out again soon here ha.  I am getting really drunk yes, well I was on house arrest there for a bit so then I couldn't drink, but now I am on the loose again bitchh.  Yes house arrest or jail that is all that will keep me from drinking, well you don't have any options no when getting drunk all day will keep you from hearing voices in your head ha, yeah get drunk or hear people talk to you all fuckking day, the option there is pretty clear ha yeah get drunk.