Troubled Waters

Detox I think you could be a interesting person to have in this thread...

PUNISHMENT IS PUNISHMENT

I did that a little while back and when i was finished i felt like a new man, and the first thing the new man wanted was some mo TW. Iw!ner is LOVE.!

proto, whats your deal? you're depressed as shit, on the methadone clinic, on valiumm and a degenerate gambler?

methadone clinic is no good. how long have you been on it? what is your dose?

i'm detox ... maybe we can shoot the dirt later.

Blackhawks circling overhead.  I'm gonna wait 'em out in my bunker, cyanide vile clenched in hand.  I will post as I can, between the Feds' EM pulse barrage..... Third and Fifth Chakras go together as we near the equinox..... Detox ... tell Proto to drop the 'dones for subutex.... Nobody shoots dirt anymore - it's hard on the veins.  Wartime - OUT

yup, drop the methadone. i know you think its the glue that is holding you together but it is probably the cause of all the pain.

methadone and valium are just bandaids .... it seems like you have been on them for too long and they have stopped working.

proto, have you ever been sober before? by sober i mean a good amount of time with nothing at all in your system.

 

Sandals ....... are your Protos cousin 

You just need a fuzzy wittle puppy dog like detox's

its not that wittle anymore

I actually discovered this thread a few months ago, read everything from page 1 to page 70.

I think Proto should cut and paste the most bizarre of his posts and put in into a short story called "Shootin' Dirt" and get it published.

Run banner ads on every sports wagering site on the Internet, and Proto's money problems will be over.

Let me speak for Proto and the other regulars when I say you are welcome to shoot the shit anytime here.... anything goes 

We should all split the cost for a villa in the south of France or maybe one in Italian wine country. It could be a "troubled waters" sanctuary of some sort. Everybody could get clean and live life the way it was meant to be lived.

I'm watching Anthony Bourdain in the South of France right now. They are eating so good and drinking wine all the time. Those are some untroubled waters out there. No breaching shark dorsal fins or nothing. Just good wine and great living.

Just what this thread needs, a raving lunatic.

wellcome aboard my brother.

Thanks Biscuit, this thread has all the comforts I could ask for ... except I'm here.....Some things you just can't escape.

sandals...6 posts since 2009 and proto thread brings yer alias out of hiding...

You Be Killen Em remix

in dire need of higher weed
the kind from fine seeds , alpine climb , my eyes bleed
blind to beliefs
bastard to convictions
you can slander but ask first what's your circumstance ? yer mission ?
what's your fuckin objection ?
to my objective
depression representative
assemblymen for your message death threats to the peasants
that uncoil like snakes pointing it's fake
paint a portrait create a warning for your hate
so pristine and palpable a sight , a mere glance would engross
think sistine chapel michelangelo
if you can handle what explodes
detonation's on the way bitch
but this aint no grenade it's a crusade major hits
never miss
blitzkrieg your head protection's ineffective no defense to it
futile attempts to live , my fued led to deaths who ? him ?
yes you and your crew chew on the stench you bitch
and the odor emitted
flow so grotesque put a hole in your chest exposin' what's missin
promotion to president i hold it with distinction
so you better vote for your breath or i'll choke it till it's finished........

protothread , so alone , no hope , a mess

I'm shocked to find gambling going on inside this establishment!

 

AS always Proto's probem is NOT REMOVING Him self from the people or area thats causing the gambling !

YOU need to totally distance yourself from the places YOU go to and change your whole life style to occupy your brain and body all day long with something else !

 

OTHER wise YOU already know the consequences of your actions !

 

Here I am hearing a lot of chatter about what may be the cause of Proto's demise.  While I sit in front of my TV, mustering all energy I can muster, to come here and post for you guys. 

Detox, let me address you.  Yeah I am on methadone and down to 100mg.  Yeah I am on valium and I do take that every day.  If I don't it catches up to me.  My problem recently is speed.  Ice, cocaine, adderall.  I also have been diagnosed as bi-polar.  I'm supposed to take lithium, depakote, and whatever else those fuk heads want me on but I don't go there.  The speed makes proto feel good then I crash for days. 

As far as methadone, I was on 640mg of oxy per day when I went to the clinic.  I just wanted to detox.  But every day you go in there they ask you if you want to raise dose.  I said hell yeah I want to raise my dose.  I'm an addict.  So I got up to over 200mg of methadone, but now I'm down to about 100.  Which is not much but it does suck the life out of you.  Both methadone and valium have very long half lives and build up in your system. 

Speed is my problem right now.  I am an addict.  I can't fucking get clean.  Also methadone blunts the effects of my favorite drug, MDMA.  I'm going to get off the methadone but its very hard. 

I got rid of all the people around me doing drugs but that did nothing but leave me with no friends.  At least I don't smoke crack anymore. 

So the reason I have not been here was an ice bender then wanting to die for a few days.  Day to day life is hard for me.

All I have is my music and my beliefs.  Someday I will be able to quit all this madness.  The speed I can quit.  Methadone and valium, which take the essence of life out of a person and leave you a zombie, I have a very hard time quitting.  I have been in and out of clinics and addicted to opiates for a very long time now.  When I was younger I just quit the opiates and went through withdrawal.   Methadone was the worst decision I ever made.

Fortune Faded

this is indeed "troubling"...I have faith in you despite the addictions...the inner core inside you has potential to succeed and overcome the obstacles that life throws at you...

Ricardo is not with us anymore.  The aliens took him up into outer space and just like in the movie scanners, their telepathic communication was too much for little Ricardo to handle.  The spit his body out of the ship and the other squirrels told me he was back, but dead.  We held a funeral and I played trumpet for Ricardo.  I played TAPS, it was only fitting for a warrior of his calibur. 

We are at war people.  At war against aliens that only I and a few squirrels know exist.  I called the govt the other day to tell them the story and they tried to have me committed.  The aliens are gathering all the gifted telepathic communicators we have on Earth and getting rid of them.  I was not strong enough to be considered a threat.  I'm afraid EBB was probably taken in this sweep too. 

The aliens must know what is going to happen.  I believe telepathic communicators of all species from around the world would some day find a way to rule the world through their powers and then build a fleet of spaceships and scanners powerful enough to destroy the aliens.  The aliens are trying to keep this from happening.  I cannot connect with anyone telepathically know.  All I hear is screams of powerful telepathic mammals and reptiles being taken out. 

The best thing for you guys to do is tell somebody you trust about what I have told you here.  If they don't believe you and laugh at you, laugh back, pretend its a joke.  For those that believe, meet in Billings, Montana, on December 1st 2012.  I think that the Mayans also had contact with these aliens and that is why they chose to end their calendar on that day......the day that life on Earth ceases to exist. 

We will appoint telepathic leaders.   Those that are left.  We need to shield them and let them work together. 

This thread now has a clear purpose.  I was meant to start this thread to let others know about what is happening.  The Aliens don't know about this thread.  Billings, Montana, December 1st 2012.  Wear a neon green headband so we can identify each other there.

Now resume talks like usual.  I will no post a song.  Aliens watching me.  They can't read English but they will know something is up if I don't post a song. 

Toto-Rosanna

MP thank you for the confidence pal.  You are always there for me.  Everyone needs to read post above this one.