Asking for acceptance

She can sing, good choice of music.

 

 

This thread deserves this song

Gravediggaz

leggy love your taste.  A little known fact about the Gravediggaz was that 2 of their 4 members were prince paul and Rza, maybe the 2 best rap producers of all time.  Gravediggaz is like the hip hop version of the Beatles.  They were great together and then separated and remained great on their own like Lennon and McCartney.  Not just great but the best.  The first 2 gravediggaz albums are sick start to finish here is the video I first saw in about 1993 or 94 and almost lost my mind it was so great.

Nowhere to Run Nowhere to Hide

I saw the video and knew Rza was in it so I told my boy we gotta go now.  I had not noticed that Prince Paul who was already a legend was also in the group.  We went to Camalots in the mall.  Yall remember camalots where you use to buy CD and tapes in early 90's?  I opened the CD up and when I saw that not only Rza but Prince Paul was in the group I swear I almost passed out.  It was like a cocaine rush man just inexplicable.  So we got home and played the album and it was so good I think we listened to the album for 3 months straight in rotation of course.

On to more serious matters.  Its been a rocky 2 days boys.  The stress of the holiday season is getting to me and I'm thinking about robbing a bank, what that would be like.  I know how to minimize chances of getting caught and where to go that has the worst law enforcement per square mile. 

I've mapped it out help me before I put the plan in action.  I need to relax.  The pills help but my new years resolution is to cut all that out by tapering.  spitfire told me to take baby steps and thats my new years resolution. 

In other news for whatever reason I think my stinger is getting bigger.  How this is possible at my age is a mystery.  Its just thicker in circumference.  I cannot explain this although I do spend a lot of time thinking about it.

I also have another plan in mind about getting money.  Maybe I will become rich off of my 1k I already have though.  It is possible guys I have a tendency to go on outrageous streaks.

If nothing works out I fear I will cry myself a river and possibly collapse on the floor, a procedure that involves hating myself so much I just pass out.  Its not these actual actions I am scared of but the thoughts and feelings I will have that will lead to it and then the embarrassment after the fact. 

As the night moves along and I dream of a tomorrow in which I don't have to struggle financially, visions of gorgeous women dance in my head.  I can almost caress them, hold them, love them, and stroke them gently.  So soft, so sweet.  As sweet as a spring glory.

By the way I love that song posted above about I want to thank you for the stay of my life.  I have it on my ipod.  Thank you.

Black Hole Sun

 

20 years Federal Time (no parole)...you won't see your daughter for 20 years.  Forget about it.

Yeah that doesn't sound like a reasonable plan..... and im usually pretty open

Your story is a like some kind of Tragedy

This thread is nothing more then the Diary of a Madman

Did someone say Suicide?
Or is this some type of Jedi Mind Trick?

Leggy nice choice...I Always knew me and proto have the same taste in music, and i must admit its DOPE   I love this song, sorry no one else in this forum gets it, but if you do enjoy your 

Holiday Stress here too bro

December 26th has become my favorite day of the year

Black Hole Sun video is amazing  good job.

Thoughts of robbing a bank  not a good idea.

 

Here is a though for getting through the Holiday's.

Do what feels right for you, and what you’re capable of doing—not what you think others expect of you…or, what you may expect of yourself.  Listen to that inner voice of wisdom, and let it guide you.

 

 

I'm begining to think your gay, where i come from men don't talk to other men like this, so as of now this thread is history with me ever reading it again.

not likely...wife and child and fantasizes about beautiful women...

This is my last post please listen carefully.

What I have done here is wrong.  I talked about my love for God and in the same thread talked about sinning against Him.

I feel horrible about this and it comes to an end now. 

I really am a Christian and I should not have done this. 

I'm going to tell you people here that I think a lot of you are really handcuffed like I am to what the devil wants us to be handcuffed to......things that offer instant gratification but in the long run make us miserable. 

I'm going to try to turn my life around with 100% of me pointed in the direction that Jesus Christ wants me to be pointed in. 

I hope that if only 1 thing comes of this thread it is that maybe 1 person will get curious about Jesus, accept Jesus, and turn his life around.  IT TAKES GUTS BUT YOU NEED TO THINK ABOUT ETERNITY, NOT TODAY OR TOMORROW. 

Eternity for many starts today, so many die everyday and pass on to eternity. 

When is yours going to start?  Are you sure you will go to heaven?

Please read this if you are interested

God bless you guys, I really hope for a good life and after-life for every one on this planet.

Let me give you an example of what I am talking about.  I talked about riding around the other day and listening to a song called Go Back to School.  The rapper in the song was originally called Snupe then when Snoop Dogg came out, he though he should change his name so he went with Extra Prolific.  He was in the Heiro crew and was making a lot of money.  In 2000 he turned his life around and became a Christian.  Here are some posts about him.  Extra Prolific's post is the last post when you click the link below:

People ask about Snupe and he responds

Now he has renamed himself Lee Majors and gave up making many times what he made as a secular artist to serve the Lord Jesus.  Here is his MySpace page, read his bio.  Click the more button under general info:

Lee Majors who use to be Snupe from Hieroglyphics

Here is a guy who had all the women he wanted, and a lifetime of easy street who at age 22 gave it all up for God.  This is what I'm talking about when I tell you it takes guts.  If he can give up all these materialistic things then you can turn your life around too.  There is so much more money for a secular rapper than there is for a Christian rapper.  But he has his eyes set for the long term, for eternity. 

Once you get to be my age, mid 30's, you realize that life goes by very fast.  I am about halfway done with my life already.  I'm going to get ready for eternity because there is no telling when it will be here for me. 

Lift up your name

Pat Tillman is my Hero....Leggy thank the troops....

And see ya around Proto, we see music much as the same...I personally think RZA when Wu Tang first came out and the 1st Gravediggaz album was when he was at his best....Bobby Digital never really was all that cool to me...But that old school RZA wwhhooaaahh some of the best music ever made..

Personal Jesus

Do what you gotta do Proto, sounds like the most productive post you have made yet, use whatever you need to turn things around, you definitely need a change in attitude + perspective.  Hope it works out for you and you start taking those baby steps You'll be feeling better in no time.

Don't forget 'God' or 'Jesus' also preach forgiveness - so you've fucked up... move on, you can't just sulk in your shame and regret... if you need to completely change your life around to be able to put it behind you and move forward with better intentions, then go for it.

And do us a favor -- when you come back to post, don't make an alias to hide your identity just because you said you'd never post again.  People say that all the time, we want to hear from ProtoStar, not an alias.    Hope all goes well and we hear from you soon Proto.

Proto

it amazes me how low income people support a racist sexist book that says slavery is okay

It amazes me too - but if it helps to not be pieces of shit in the real world, I'm happy that they do.

come back proto

I still can't believe how many of you tools believe that proto's story is legit.