Asking for acceptance

No God, no such thing

Right now I watching swamp people on high definition.  Those people are skilled and they can shoot the dirt with gators!  That beats all i've seen.  This show calms my nerves if you find yourself lost at night, watch swamp people you will feel better.

I have made many friends here but it really doesnt help.  I still feel depressed cause i lost my roll. 

Right now I take meds and fade into sweet memories.  Sweet memories of a life I once knew.  Memories is all I have now.  Dont let me depress you guys most people dont have chemical imbalance.  I dream of flowers, I'm happy when I dream.  So peaceful. 

I want to dream in peace boys.  Peaceful dreams, painful days.  Good luck in life boys.

Fade Into A Girl I Once Knew

Fade Away......................

As you fade away Protostar think about the nuts on my chin

you are the type of guy i would love to shoot the dirt with. keep ya head up champ. life is a great thing that should not be wasted..look at it this way....at least u didnt ejaculate everywhere while eating a girl out.

.........(cricket)...

manstar i read about the guy who tried to shoot the dirt with the girl and give oral sex only to ejaculate on himself.  that man has problems beyond what any psychiatrist could help him with and I feel sorry for people like that.

tonight is a peaceful night.  as i was taking out the trash i imagined myself a rich man with so much to look forward to tommorrow.  in reality we are a family in debt.  worth more dead than alive, both of us.  i have thoughts of criminal acts to gain money.  its really bad.  i dont want to ever hurt anyone but i need money for a bankroll.  i need 15 dimes minimum to get started.  please if anyone out there wants to shoot the dirt and shoot me 15k i'm here to help.

on another note i have recently started craving alcohol again.

as i fade into sweet memories of times gone past i leave you with one last thought.  for just a short time tonight i am a ROCKET MAN.

ROCKET MAN

russo I am so glad my RSI is red and not black.  if it was black i might lose sleep oever it.  SOOOOO GL4444444D.  mine red and its full not half full.  but wait that means that if i had real money on those games i would have more money on it.  hugs kisses and well wishes.

---ROCKET MAING

first steps on a path to

This is what 100% Pure Bullshit smells like...

Sleep 14 Hours a day because you're depressed. I don't think so. The opposite would occur. No Sleep. I know it well.

You only need 15 K but claim to have had it multiple times...? DickWad.

You're poor but little ole Wifie gave you a K to bet with... Dumb bitch deserves to be slapped as well.

If anyone remembers the Cheech and Chong skit where they come across some dogshit and he tell him to "Smell" then "Taste" only to say "Good thing we no step in it..." well... This is the same bullshit.

This is most likely a social experiment and was best answered by the first poster to reply...

"Go Fuck Yourself."

 

lol

Manstar is the guy that did that. Hilarous

theft  they'll never send you to jail

skubishak you are one smart man.  all you have to do is google depression symptoms and in just every single website that describes depression symptoms you will see that among the possible symptoms are sleeping too much or sleeping too little. 

And are you aware of the fact that people can lose money gambling?  Not only have I had 17k, but in the past year I have achieved 15-17k 3 times from a deposit of 1000 or less.  3 times in the past year.  Now I also lost about 10k in the process but I did hit 4 to 5 in a row 3 times in the past year.  Look at my NBA picks.  I've hit 3 in a row in the month of December.  Too bad I'm not betting cash because I have a compulsive disorder.  I hope you are a strong guy and don't have to rely on brains for your income.

Boys this outburst was very unusual for me but when the trash needs taken out then you take out the trash.

Today I went to get a haircut.  My head looked fat when I was sitting in the chair and I felt so stupid.  In the past 5 years I have gained 50 pounds.  about 30 in the past year or 2.  From severe depression.  I'm so fortunate to make so many friends here and now I have something to lean on in life.  You guys can lean on me too, when you dont feel strong in life.

Today as I was driving down the road on the way back home after my haircut because I have nowhere else to go but Burger King, I envisioned myself in a sweet pasture filled with flowers, 19 years old, my life in front of me, many friends, and happiness.  I was daydreaming boys and it came to an abrupt end when the car in front of my slammed on breaks.  I started to cry.  It was somewhat bad by the time I got home and I got out of my car still crying.  My neighbor looked at me like I was an outcast.  A nobody, a loser.  Here I sit approaching my mid 30's and I'm losing it fast.  Enjoy the glory years boys because they are fleeting and you will be sorry.  I make myself artificially happy for a brief time and shoot the dirt with my dog when she will listen to me.  usually she ignores me too.

Here is a nice melody I like to listen to because sometimes I collapse on the floor in a mad fit.  Plug in the headphones boys this one will take you for a ride.

I AM READY FOR A FALL, READY FOR THE FLOOR



 

I am so dumb now I'm really mad at myself.  I just made a fool out of myself.  I put December instead of November in my post above. 

Another thing that you guys have to understand is that when I build up my bankroll I lose it all.  Then add to that the 10k I have lost trying to build bankrolls and that equals 10k in the red in the past year. 

skubishak would be able to tell you this if he could grasp the concept of negative numbers.  He gets a credit card and thinks he was just paid 500 dollars by the credit card company for free.

Calm down Proto 

You dont need to get one closer to 20 on the wall because of skubishack.

Hate to hear that you are fat and gross. Your fictional wife must bang other dudes because you are so weak and worthless. Not even trying to stir up emotions but it is almost impossible that shes not banging other dudes.

 

 

salty you have made me cry again.  why????  i wouldnt say im fat but 6-4 240 pounds when 5 years ago i was a tall dark and handsome 180-190 pounds and pure muscle.  now im a fat guy that guys like you laugh at me.  salty i need somebody to lean on right now can i count on you as a friend?

Im getting close to screaming here how does that make you feel salty?

Well pards I am 6'5" and I am 260 lbs. If I am having not trouble finding women It must just be that you are ugly as hell

My ideal weight is about 245-250 so I am over but do not look fat at 260 but need to lose a few.

And if you were at 180 you were a weakling and not pure muscle.

I got down to 205 for a short time in my early 20s due to a crazy job and looked like a bitch. I cant even believe what I looked like in those old pictures.

So the point of my explanation is that you dont need to worry about being fat and maybe focus on how you could improve on being ugly if thats possible

I haven't shot the dirt in a long time.....what's the new dirt?

Proto we can shoot dirt all over the place, but premature ejaculation aint got shit on what your selling...you my friend are nucking futs.

 i am 5-10 weigh 190-195 and i could loose 5-10 but it isn't a big deal to me...Just shooting the dirt....


In all respect man stop posting your problems on the internet for the world to make fun of...Than SALTY will stop making you cry. At least go to a depression forum or anything other than covers. GL

is his avatar from last unicorn, or willow or some shit? who is this weirdo

Dark Crystal/Labyrinth type of guy...

salty good grief son let me set you straight now wow are you that dense?  Look at an NBA roster.  Most guys are 6-5 210 pounds.  Maybe 6-2 170 pounds.  But they are pure muscle and have verticle leaps of 3-4 feet, compared to your verticle of a little over 1 foot.  They can also bench 3 times their body weight do you see where I'm going with this salty I'm teaching you a lesson in muscle anatomy.  Muscle weighs more than fat so you can be very skinny and very strong at the same time.

And you brought up a very touchy subject for me.  Believe it or not I am very handsome and got many one night stand type of girls.  Many years ago before I became fat and on drugs. 

But when they found out about my real personality they wanted nothing to do with me.  So no sustained relationships except my wife.  I'm fuking worked up now salty what the hell is wrong with you?

Ok boys I've just taken my first round of meds for the night and have a big bottle of aquafina water to down it with.  always take meds on empty stomach and with some plenty of water.  I call this the first orbital.  2nd orbital will be initiated in about 5 minutes.  3rd orbital tends to render me unconscious after a brief moment amongst friends I left in high school in 1995.  Sometimes I am in a paradise along with friends from happy days now past.  I am usually crying in happiness as I fall asleep during the 3rd orbital. 

I have a 1k credit line with a local.  I can bet all or none of it any time I want.  When I didn't take the Packers tonight for all 1k and seeing the final score, I just pulled my hair as hard as I could for a brief minute.  It allows me to escape from the excrutiating pain that is failure of betting on the Packers. 

Ok I am back now people and 2nd orbital has been initiated.  Life is getting easier for the first time today.  I can tell myself now that I am somebody, that I mean something in this life.  And I can actually talk myself into believing that.  If only for a brief time tonight.

They use to call me Mr. F*** Up for a good reason.

Mr. F*** Up

And its always the Same Ol Sh**

Thats What I Said

Lean on me boys I aint gonna listen to nothing but the best music ever made.

Protostar keep listening to your tunes and thinking of happier times. 

I think that with your $1K line credit you will be able to do big things, possibly run it up to over $25k or so.  Imagine all the things you will be able to do with that money.  It will be a jubilant time for sure.

For now just enjoy your orbitals and lets focus on hitting some winners this week.  You have the right attitude Proto and that's half the battle.  I see you headed on the road to superstardom and I can only tip my hat and say I was lucky enough to be there at the beginning of it all.