Troubled Waters

No worries dude.  I still want an explanation on why that thread hasn't been archived

Proto everyimte I log on to check this thread out I got to see MichaelPaul hogging it with hate and contempt for others and everyone. A building needs to fall over on im sooner then later.

Guys I have to admit I use to look forward to valentines day.  I was a guy who mattered.  We had parties with beautiful young women in attendance snorting cocaine.  It was great.  I always had one flirting with me and the night ended with 2 becoming 1.  Afterward we had painkillers to come down with.  I would lay there with a beautiful woman beside me, stroking hair and thinking how much in love I am with this perfect creature who makes me feel so good.

Not any more boys.  Tomorrow will be spent losing hair and pouting.  If the memories compared to the current situation become too much to bear I will need to floor myself somehow.  Render myself stupid.  Who is to say I am in the wrong with this way of thinking?

Boys I have to admit, things are not as bad as I portray.  I am thankful for my health and my family.  I just beat myself up a lot, I am a very negative person and bi polar.

I think a lot of people suffer from this.  Glory days are behind you and you wish for yester year.  Had a chance to make a great life for yourself and totally blew it.  Gave up the future for the now.  Young people learn from my misfortune, work hard, get a great degree and never look back.  Never stop working that is the first step in a life of misery. 

I use to be so happy.  I was popular, I had things going for me, and people wanted to be around me.

No more.  Took a U turn in life and ended up nearly falling off a cliff.  I am still hanging but my fingers are slowly slipping, I can feel them starting to hurt, I may fall completely at any second.

A daydreamer who pulled the parachute cord just a tad too late.

Valentine's Day here I am.  No girls coming my way this time.  I guess I have Taco Bell to look forward to.  Nice.

Beware a rascal beyond doubt bobbing in the fog.  Trip to see him acting the fool, does he have a concussion?  If asked, he will tell you he is doing the right thing.  Pistol whip that bum.

Here is my all time favorite singer and song.  Limahl singing The Never Ending Story.  Limahl is a great man with a beautiful voice.  The movie and song give me peace and hope.  Happy Valentines day everybody.

It was a source of comfort for me as a child and continues to be.

TNES that is.TNES was a source of comfort.

Here is another video that reminds me of yester year.  I use to have a voice like Sebastian Bach and could sing this song to girls I wanted to woo.  Not any more, I sound like a frog when I sing now.  Sebastian Bach is a beautiful man with a very nice voice as well kind of like Limatyl.

I posted this video in my other thread but this is a great Valentines Day video for those who are lost.

I remember you - Skid Row

What in the hell...

The past is over and done and has no power over you. You can begin to be free in this moment.  Today's thoughts create your future.  You are in CHARGE!!!! You now take your own power back.  You are guided and protected by the Buddha of the ten directions.

Woke up to the sound of pouring rain

What about your wife, Proto? 

Henry my wife is a saint for putting up with me. 

But believe me, we have been married for many years I am 33 years old she is 30 years old and the flame goes out quickly when you get married. 

She is a great person though. 

I am still up can't sleep.  Brain totally fried and medication fuks with my sleep patterns.   

this is the funniest thing i have ever read! oh man im crying its so funny!

Today i woke up around 11am just in time to get action on every (pro) game, went 12-4. not bad. Then went to the casino about 20 min from my house and won $1400 playing 5-60. Came home a discovered this thread and it has been the highlight of my day, when proto talks abot hitting his head on the stearing wheel for getting the wrong taco i almost pissed myself. Tomorrow i will wake up go through my phone and decide witch 20 year old girl i will take out to dinner and fuck. My only regret in life is that i did not come across this thread sooner. It feels good to be a winner. Proto, you are betting to much on each game. Try risking only one percent of your roll on each play.      Thanks for the laughs guys! good night! 

Up early in the morning shooting dirt.........Proto wassup original OG Gangster of the GD..........you need to invent a time machine.....that is the answer to all your problems....

 

kool post bro

happy valentines day pronto

you sound like me pronto a run and gunner, i sent in 600 sat turned it into 8600 last night had kings ml , i'm very streaky , just ask the hockey peeps i turned 23 dollars one sat into over 10k the next wed, i'm streaky hot and very streaky cold, i have lost a ton as well as won a ton, i've never been able to go by the money management system when i see something i like i play it big, i don't need to follow other peeps plays so called experts , scrape some money together and go on a run, win about 10k in a few days and cash out that will get u started back on the right track

Proto, your listening to the wrong music. Listen to this:

     This is the worst advice you could give a problem gambler.  

The fuck?

I almost started crying when I saw Proto's Sebastian Bach avatar

 

you are right...no more negativity...

 

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