Troubled Waters

Proto, my plays this weekend were rather poor and the fishing was f'ning lousy.i'm a little down, could you, or one of my brothers in Protoland send out a song for me.

  https://youtu.be/Umzh1UYI0Sg

Thank You Clem, i owe ya a dusty room temp 16 oz Colt 45.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fi6Ddd6eRqM

  I just knew i was getting some Jimi. LOL

16 inch Perch - monsters!  If anyone doesn't know, Perch out of clean water taste as good as walleye.  at 16 inches, they had to be 1&1/2 lbs each.  Nice.     As a fisherman I had to comment..... and I have found raccoons to be the stubbornest of scavengers - way less cute than you'd think when they are within 5 feet of ya'. 

Oh Monday morning.  Or is it Tuesday?  I don't know, don't care.  My life is a joke.  I am on fire with my picks so far.  The torturous part is that I had no money to put on them, I wasted it all on degenerate gambling.  Just picking games at random to have action as soon as I get the green light to put money on a game. 

So what could be in store next for me?  All i do all day, everyday, is listen to the Music Choice channels.  The 70's, 80's, 90's, and soft rock channels are very dear to my heart.  Especially the 80's and soft rock.  Every now and then I will render myself into a self induced unconsciousness while listening to Music Choice music channels.  For those that have Comcast cable, they are in the 400's.  I often cry.

What has my life become?  When I gain enough energy and can walk straight, I go out to my borrowed car (totaled my last one and wasted all the money on gambling), and take a short trip up the road to check to see if RedBox or Blockbuster Movie Box has any new movies.  They seldom do.  I cry right there at movie box.  I see the young guys with their fine ass dates laughing and kissing, waiting for me to move away from the box.  I want to tell the guy to hold on to these times for as long as he can, for they will be gone one day and he will either be a slave to the grind, or a dope head with no chance in life like me. 

Even when the movie box has a new movie, it only partially satisfies me.  When I was younger I could attain full satisfaction.  Full bliss.  Whether it was catching a nut inside a beautiful girl (I use to love humping from behind.  The jiggle of a girl's big ass made me come real quick).  Then I had the stamina to do it again 10 minutes later, to satisfy her and me.  I do not have this stamina any more.  I would have smoked a joint right before I got her on the bed and pulled up her skirt, and down with the panties.  Many times I would salivate while humping and drool on her back.  By that time I had pulled up the shirt and bra to grab the size C or D breasts.  Oh wow. What a feeling.  Anyway, sometimes I would drool on the back and it seemed to turn her on even more.  Like that guy from up north, Archie Bunker said, "those were the days".

Maybe I am going too far here.  No I'm not.  If I don't retell the stories they fade away.  What would I do to have a sweet Ronay to hump and pump in my presence now?  Probably nothing because I don't have any Viagra, and lost my MDMA connection.  A man of my age has decreased sex drive.  Plus I am an overweight dufus. 

If I could lose 40 pounds and kick these damn prescription pills maybe I could get back into the game.  Is this hope I am giving myself?  No, life could never get that easy again. 

I think back to the many trials the great southern state of South Carolina put me through as a teenager, to try to save me from this life I have fallen into.  One such course was an outdoors course where we would have to blindfold ourselves and climb trees, then bungee jump down off.  I laughed at the time and thought it was cutting into my drunk time, but now I think I owe those guys a thank you.  A thank you for trying to save me from this misery I now endure. 

Watching the Wheels

Memories I find just fade away.  My life just fades away.

Elderly Woman Behind The Counter in a small town

dogunder is swimming in the trouble waters...

 

Proto, why can't you lose 40 pounds and kick your pill habit?

Proto needs to be in the HOF....

I still say give suboxen a try ProtoStar my man.  I moved to Las Vegas on June 3rd, and have been very diligent about my Suboxen use.  I was initially prescribed 16 mg/day, but have maintained at 4 mg/day after realizing that 16 was too much and detrimental to my happiness.  I have lost 17 lbs by eating right (not too much sodium) and just living in leisure.  I watch my daughter and my ex-girlfriend's son quite often, but other than that, I place a few bets, play poker 2 nights a week (long sessions from 10 pm to 6 am) and other than that sit by the pool and read alot.  The only exercise I get is the mile or so walk to the casino a few times per week.  Just live easy, bro.  Clear a few days out and just tell yourself that those are days for healing ... and then  - Just Heal!  No guilt, No remorse!  Your soul belongs on this planet as much as, and probably more than others.  Breathe in the air of your fortress - breathe out the magic of your ether.  You belong here man.  You belong here to be happy.  Stress is keeping the weight on you - in mind, body, and soul.... Even with the opiates, enjoy 'em and just heal yourself brother.

Its the equinox.  My daughter turns 1 years old today.  Stayed up all night reading a new Patterson novel and watching last year's final "Office" episodes on Hulu....only had 5 vodka tonics...  Life feels good.  Proto, join me in this season of healing and contentment.  Pace out your oxys for the day and enjoy them.  maybe have a gin n tonic or two.  do a few push-ups.  make love to your wife.  find a book, write in a notebook and see the sun.... for guys like us, it can get outta hand quick, but still try to right the ship.  This world, it's still here for you....  please try...tell me how it goes.  Peace to all on this thread.

Sing me back to Goose Creek South Carolina

where the fishing is fine and the women are finer.

  I'm feeling queasy, i miss you buddy.

Children: far and away lifes greatest gift, but sadly those years will be fleeting. take many pics & vids.

Someone give me wisdom on tonights NCAAF match-up.  I'm thinking Cen. Florida's Defense is too good for a demoralized BYU.  Let me know if I'm wrong here, I think I just might be too impatient to wait for the weekend and am talking myself into a bet just for some adrenaline.

All things point to C.FL but yet BYU is faved.If you just want a little action drop a half unit on the over and root. GL

yeah - maybe half unit ($25 for me) - and parlay with the over.  nothin much to lose and maybe win 2 units to play tomorrow.  Thanks BizKit.

look at the way the we live

wastin' our time on cheap talk on wine

left us so little to give

ended up putting cash on Central Florida moneyline.  I'm so fucking tired of reading the game right and losing my bet to fumbles and dumb ass shit.  anyone who saw this game could see that BYU is a joke and only one due to 14 pts on special teams. FUCK!!!!!!!!!

It happened last week with the Eagles, and week one NFL with Dallas.  I don't know if I should be happy with the analysis, or pissed at the outcome.  If Illinois doesn't cover -13.5 against Western Michigan tomorrow, I'll fuck myself .. really i'll find a way even if a knife is involved.  I might go as much as $2,200 tomorrow on that one game even though my unit bet is $50.  I could kill a MF right now!  with my mind!!!

I misused the homonym "one" - I always thought that was "two"'s job.  to be misused.  hmmm

Howdy Proto, i know you have a play, come clean.If not, go sell one of those ox's, you can probably get 80 soamoans for it and drop them on Md - 8'. I think ya need to talk with the jail bird Proto, he is talking crazy, crazy talk Iw1ner.