Troubled Waters

Quote Originally Posted by drJ:

maybe proto took this song too seriously

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Quote Originally Posted by drJ:

maybe proto took this song too seriously

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Quote Originally Posted by drJ:

returned from the darkside by the surfers

stay thirsty my friend.

oh, drug dealing is bad mkay

drinks for free from black drug dealers is okay though, add some roofey tales next time.....just a literary hint.

i was under general anesthesia today for an hour....who knows what really happened

Quote Originally Posted by ProtoStar:

Well I fell off the wagon.  Wife drug me to the mall a couple days ago.  I did not want to and pitched a fit just like a child.  She told me I had to so I went.  While there I couldn't help but notice that there was so many young, fertile women there who looked like delicate flowers. 

We decided to eat and one of them was in front of me and she smelled so good.  I wanted to smell her hair so bad.  So I leaned forward with wife not looking and stuck my nose in her hair.  It instantly took me back to the prairies, I was instantly a young man with life in front of me and flowers all around.  I didn't want to push it so I backed off.  When I did I became sad.  I wanted to caress this creature in front of me.  But I couldn't.  I started to well up.  Do you guys know what this is like?  You see a girl in passing and want to be with her, but know you will likely never see her again?

I told my wife I needed to go to the bathroom, and under immense stress from what had happened I went to the bar.  I drank with a couple of black guys who were there buying everything in sight.  My phone was turned to vibrate and as I drank.  It kept going off, so I turned it to silent.  These guys told me how they sell drugs, how they have a certain number of blocks that they hold down, not allowing outsiders to sell there.  I was telling jokes and they were laughing.  I am at ease when drinking.  I had a good time but it was not destined to last.

When I got home after catching a cab (wife left me), I decided to quarantine myself because I was hating myself.  I was enamored by these guys and wanted to be like them.  Cool like I use to be.  But it is not to be guys.  I don't think I can recapture it.  Memories and images of what use to be is all there is left.  

As I lay down tonight I will think back to the girl I saw at the mall, how she captured my heart, and how I would love to dance in the pastures with her.  Pastures of cherry blossoms.  Maybe if I danced naked in the cherry blossoms other girls would consider me to be back in the game.  Back in effect.  A desirable guy.

I'm a "Zero"

Quote Originally Posted by drJ:

returned from the darkside by the surfers

stay thirsty my friend.

oh, drug dealing is bad mkay

drinks for free from black drug dealers is okay though, add some roofey tales next time.....just a literary hint.

i was under general anesthesia today for an hour....who knows what really happened

Quote Originally Posted by ProtoStar:

This is how deep my sickness runs.  I posted a video I had not seen in a while.  The singer is a beautiful girl and now I am obsessed with her.  Looking at pictures on the internet of her.  Getting mad because surely some other man is touching her at night.

Iwin you tell me....what kind of a freak have I become?  I have become a person that me and my friends would have laughed at 15 years ago. 

I may faint at any moment, is this normal for a man in his mid 30's?  I live in my own little world now guys.  I talk to myself.  Sometimes I laugh at things I say.  Sometimes I cry at the things I say to myself. 

I need sleep now.  No I'm not going to work.  I will be on the couch like a looney toon. 

Quote Originally Posted by dytide:

Quote Originally Posted by ProtoStar:

This is how deep my sickness runs.  I posted a video I had not seen in a while.  The singer is a beautiful girl and now I am obsessed with her.  Looking at pictures on the internet of her.  Getting mad because surely some other man is touching her at night.

Iwin you tell me....what kind of a freak have I become?  I have become a person that me and my friends would have laughed at 15 years ago. 

I may faint at any moment, is this normal for a man in his mid 30's?  I live in my own little world now guys.  I talk to myself.  Sometimes I laugh at things I say.  Sometimes I cry at the things I say to myself. 

I need sleep now.  No I'm not going to work.  I will be on the couch like a looney toon.