You don't realize it but your rational and logical thoughts are somewhat dysfunctional but it's not to say it is beyond repair.
There are enough evidences, such as philosophical, scientific, biblical, moralistic, to convince or persaude any normal rational, logical thinking mind that the existence of God is reasonable.
Perhaps someday you will be enlightened to see everything more clearly and again become a believer.
But right now you have made the choice of not believing which is fine. We all make choices, some choices are right and some are wrong and only on one occasion it will be neither right nor wrong because of lost of awareness.
In respect to believing or not believing in God, if God does exist we will all know if our choices were right or wrong after our physical deaths.
However if God does not exist then neither the believer nor the non-believer will know if the choice was right or wrong because they will not have any consciousness or awareness and will be as dead as a doorknob can be so to speak...lol
So I won't say anymore here and just let you ponder on what I have just said to you.
Lastly, to further illustrate to you that your rational and logical thoughts are somewhat dysfunctional would be to say, if you don't believe in something, how does a rational and logical thinking mind mock, ridicule, sneer at an object they don't believe in, I mean it doesn't make rational or logical sense...are you understanding this?...probably not eh?...lol