I have never read anywhere on this thread where you said, "I want there to be a God"..... ever on this thread.
The very first thing that came out of your mouth was, "Hey Rostos, something can come from nothing."
You have been trying your best to discredit or ridicule the existence of God all along. Below are some of the statements you've made. It clearly doesn't sound like a guy that's seeking and "wants there to be a God".
pg. 48 #1200, "Hey Rostos, something can come from nothing."
pg. 53 #1301, "Evil exists, AND"god" is all good and all powerful...This statement is contradictory. If "god" is all good, he would not allow evil to exist. If he is all powerful, that would mean he clearly has the power to abolish all evil...THEREFORE god can NOT be both all good AND all powerful..."
pg. 54 #1336 "So an all good god allows evil?? What an asshole...All it takes is simple logic to see the statement is contradictory, but if you believe in god, then you have already decided to go against simple logic, and I can not help you...Honestly, I wish I believed in a magical man in the sky, but my brain won't allow such foolishness."
pg. 54 #1341, "What is your excuse for "god" allowing people to die from natural disasters?? How is that okay? He just lets earthquakes and hurricanes kill millions... That's nice of him...There are very few people who TRULY believe in god.One of my favorite quotes: "Everybody want go heaven, but nobody want dead!" (funny enough it's from a Steven Seagal movie)... If people truly believed, they wouldn't be afraid to die....Are you afraid to die Rostos?"
pg. 54 #1349, "How can you speculate that if statistically the greatest fear for almost everyone is death??And if I die and there is a god, he can just forgive me for using the brain he gave me... Or is he too much of an asshole?
pg. 55 #1352, "You are aware that Adam never existed right? The story of Adam and Eve is just that: a story... You can't pick a choose stuff in the bible in an attempt to make your case... Why aren't you out killing people who are involved with banking and eating lobsters?? Those are forbidden in the bible, so wouldn't that be god's will??
pg. 55 #1367, "Oh I thought thou shall not murder? Bible says to kill a LOT... And Rostos, you clearly don't understand me... If you TRULY believe in god and heaven, then you should not be afraid to die... If you TRULY believe you are going to heaven, then why be scared to die??
pg. 56 #1379, "Drake, please stop saying that you KNOW that god is good or that you KNOW anything at all. The point is you KNOW NOTHING. Nobody KNOWS anything. And dont post some BS scripture that shows how you KNOW anything. The truth is no one KNOWS anything, because no one can KNOW. All you have is what you THINK is right... That you can not disprove... And I'm not claiming I know anything either. The fact of the matter is that NOBODY KNOWS ANYTHING... If you can't at least admit that, then I'm done here..."
pg. 58 #1440, "Actually I know a lot about the Catholic faith. I attended Catholic school for almost 15 years. The funny thing is, the more I learned, the more illogical it all seemed. So you "see" god huh? What's he/she look like?"
pg. 58 #1444, "You're worse than Rostos. Maybe what he did can be considered committing suicide. He knew people would kill him if he continued on his path. That's essentially euthanasia, no? He basically asked to be killed... "
pg. 59 #1457, "Kindergarten to high school senior is 15 years. It's actually 16 because my preschool was Catholic as well... I did pay attention. Like I said, the more I learned, the more illogical it all became..."
pg. 61 #1506, "Bible also says to kill people..."
pg. 64 #1585, "And I'm just curious Rostos... Let's say, hypothetically of course, that I wanted to live a christian life and attempt to repent for my sins, but I can't bring myself to believe in what I'm doing and all I can do is fake it... Does this count?... If not, how is it fair that god gave me a brain that doesn't allow me logically to believe in him... Then what? I go to hell because he gave me a brain that won't allow me to believe?? Or is faking it okay??"
So there is really nothing we can say to you at this point because you have a hardened heart and a stubborn closed mind. What you need is some kind of miracle in your life.
EX4life said it best on pg. 51 #1267 when he said, "The question everybody needs to ask themselves, is do you want there to be a God? If you say yes, then there is enough evidence, proof, and historical facts (Not that you necessarily need them to be a Christian) to back what the Bible says... but if you don't want there to be a God, is there truly anything anybody can say, even if God was to send His only Son to earth to save mankind, to get you to change your mind? I doubt it..."